The other day, I went with "The Ukrainian" to the LA Marathon Expo and recorded a little mash-up for YouTube. I had not been to that expo in a couple of years, and since neither of us are doing much running these days, expos in general haven't been something I've seen a lot of since 2014 or so. I didn't go through all of my thoughts in the video. Yesterday was the race, and since I spent the day with Tuesday (our son ), I had more time to think about what I was missing. I would have normally said "dwell" rather than "think," but it really was more of a "think" than "dwell." I used to be SO bothered when I couldn't do a race, for any reason. Standing on the sidelines felt like I was giving up, which seems so, so ridiculous to me now that I'm a month away from turning 32 and feeling like I'm 62. I wish I didn't spend all those active racing years beating myself up for not finishing races at goal, a
my musings since 2006